Faith Teddy (Thomas)
Someone said: When the
world asks you, "How are you?", they are not really ready to listen
to the honesty of that answer... and as a people, we are also not ready to give
the truth in that answer. We walk around in this clandestine fear that our
world will come falling down if we are honest with each other. So we say,
"I am Fine." and hope no one sees through us.
The truth is when a person like me says she is your friend, what it means is you've got my loyalty even to that bitter. So we can put our guards down and be honest with each other. It means when I ask "How are you?" I am ready to love you no matter how ugly your truth is. And if ever you hurt me, knowingly or unknowingly all you need to do is say you are sorry (no excuses, no lies... just be sorry)... It might take sometime to untangle but ultimately I will let go, because that is what love does.
Maybe I failed in the many preachings I put on my timeline... maybe I have made my friends think Christianity is the baseline for us to be real. Maybe I am failing right now with how I am trying to NOT let people in. So you want to know how I am right now? I am a wreck. I lost Faith in so many painful ways, and loosing her to death is unbearable. I am so angry in so many ways and knowing she won't be there when it finally goes away is hurtful. I am crying, I am hurting and I do not know where to start unwinding...
Faith had come around to accepting that life is short. And it was this notion that made her an EXEMPLARY mother to her son, a loving wife to her husband, a decisive lover, a passionate nurse and a really sober headed financial decision maker... because she 'grabbed' life by it's horns...
Knowing the person that she was, I am sure this is how she would celebrate her own funeral, mine and pro'bly yours: She would take a shot or two of vodka/ a tot of tequila. She would drink Kingfisher back to back and she would dance all through the night and she would say, "Nimekuja kujua, this life is short. So drink up. Have fun and live your life." ...and i can tell you for free, that she did :)
Here's to Faith
The truth is when a person like me says she is your friend, what it means is you've got my loyalty even to that bitter. So we can put our guards down and be honest with each other. It means when I ask "How are you?" I am ready to love you no matter how ugly your truth is. And if ever you hurt me, knowingly or unknowingly all you need to do is say you are sorry (no excuses, no lies... just be sorry)... It might take sometime to untangle but ultimately I will let go, because that is what love does.
Maybe I failed in the many preachings I put on my timeline... maybe I have made my friends think Christianity is the baseline for us to be real. Maybe I am failing right now with how I am trying to NOT let people in. So you want to know how I am right now? I am a wreck. I lost Faith in so many painful ways, and loosing her to death is unbearable. I am so angry in so many ways and knowing she won't be there when it finally goes away is hurtful. I am crying, I am hurting and I do not know where to start unwinding...
Faith had come around to accepting that life is short. And it was this notion that made her an EXEMPLARY mother to her son, a loving wife to her husband, a decisive lover, a passionate nurse and a really sober headed financial decision maker... because she 'grabbed' life by it's horns...
Knowing the person that she was, I am sure this is how she would celebrate her own funeral, mine and pro'bly yours: She would take a shot or two of vodka/ a tot of tequila. She would drink Kingfisher back to back and she would dance all through the night and she would say, "Nimekuja kujua, this life is short. So drink up. Have fun and live your life." ...and i can tell you for free, that she did :)
Here's to Faith
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